I have said here many times before that I am worrier, it is part of my nature and something I struggle with. However, it has become a lot better as I learn to leave it all in God's hands. A few people have asked me if I am scared to take on a new office- some wanting to know from a business perspective, some wanting to know with a child on the way. No matter what the reason for asking, the answer is yes. Well, sort of.
In the past month I did have a major panic attack, full on sobbing to be honest. Then God reminded me to leave it in his hands and since then I have not worried for one second.
The point of this is to say whenever I take my eyes off of God or try to run my life without Him in the forefront panic always makes its way back in. The other day I realized this so clearly and it made me think of this story:
Shortly before dawn Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake. When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. “It’s a ghost,” they said, and cried out in fear. But Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.” “Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.”
“Come,” he said.
Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!”
Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?”
And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down. Then those who were in the boat worshiped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.”
Matthew 14: 25-33