Sunday, August 21, 2011

Quiet Time- The Beginning...And Everything That Comes With It

The picture above is the first thing I ever purchased for the nursery. It is a page from a Bible dating back to the 1600's that I tracked down after seeing the Bible originally a long time ago at Scott's. It is not just any page though, it is special to me.

I won't go into all the details but around 8 weeks pregnant I was anxious and worried. While we did not have to endure anything close to what many couples do to get pregnant, it didn't just magically come easy to us, it took time and a lot faith. Then we were pregnant and me being the worrier I am battled fears of losing the baby. So during one particular fit of worry, a crazy and simple thing happened and God sent me the following passage:

"Then God said, "Let us make mankind in our image, in our likeness, so that they may rule over the fish in the sea and the birds in the sky, over the livestock and all the wild animals, and over all creatures that move along the ground."

So God created mankind in his own image, in the image of God he created them; male and female he created them.

God blessed them and said to them, "Be fruitful and increase in number, fill the earth and subdue it. Rule over the fish in the sea and the birds in the sky and over every living creature that moves on the ground." Genesis 1:26-28

I was so comforted; God has given me such a sense of peace during this time.

But here we are in the final week, one the verge of a new beginning and I have to be honest. In between the excitement and joy over meeting our son; fear, worry and anxiety are creeping in. Over what exactly I don't know. I can't explain it but I am sure many of you out there understand. Maybe it is the waiting and the unknown? Maybe it is change that always scares me? Don't get me wrong, there is nothing I want more than to meet our son and become a Mom.

I don't think I have ever prayed as hard as I have throughout this pregnancy and the prayers here at the end are coming fast and furious. I know He is listening, I know that one or another-no matter what, everything will be okay, and I just have to be still in Him. Sometimes though that is much easier said than done.

12 comments:

Shera said...

Praying for you this week as you welcome your little man into this world....praying especially that God gives you peace!

Betsy said...

Marianne...
I understand and felt the same anxiety you are experiencing. It is normal and expected. So much to anticipate and look forward to. All new and all unknown.
I'm so excited for you and will be anxiously awaiting the announcement of your don't arrival. We will have to get the boys together for play dates as soon as you are ready.


Betsy Gordon

Queen Anne 13 said...

Your little one is very fortunate to have a mother who prays. No other gift will be as valuable as daily prayer for him.

Katie (Refresh Design Studio) said...

I had the same worries, I think it is totally normal and will not change over the course of your motherhood :) Just know that God is looking out for you and that baby and taking care of both of you.

Lydia Joy said...

Your posts are always such a blessing. Prayers for you and your little baby!!

under spanish moss said...

This is a most beautiful post. We both struggle with being still in him. It's so hard sometimes when anxiety seems to grip you but knowing that he has is all in control gives us peace. We are praying for you guys this week.
Angela and Renee

Anonymous said...

Continue praying. Surrender! Thank you for becoming a mom, a mother! You will do a great job! And smell him a lot in the first few days. Just smell, sniff, smell and you will fall in love! Have fun and God bless!

Jennifer said...

totally normal feelings! and thankfully (for me at least) the fear disappeared the minute I saw her sweet face. there are so many new, exciting and wonderful things to feel that there just isn't time or energy for fear. take a deep breath, thank the Lord for that sweet baby and enjoy your last days as a family of 2!

Anonymous said...

I love your blog and have read it for a long time...I'm just not a commenter! I had to comment today! Prayers for you are going up and I think everyone feels the way you do! That anxiety will turn into pure bliss soon! Congratulations!

LindsB said...

I cant believe the baby is going to be here so soon!!

What a special and amazing passage and work of art for your sons room- I love the meaning behind it and think it is beautiful!

LLH Designs said...

That old Bible page is incredible! The Word is SO powerful...in both visible and invisible ways. What an awesome thing that your child will have it as a banner over him! By the grace of God, you will be a fabulous mama!

Love,
Linsey

3 Peanuts said...

I will pray for you this week, Marianne. I think every Mom feels this anxiety just before delivery. That is not to minimize it. Pour your fears into God's hands. He will take them.

I cannot wait to see your little bundle:)

Kim